Life after high school.

I should blog more?

here's a quickie:

hmm..so I am super involved with in school, like a nerd. Suprisingly, I've decided to attend community for two years right after I graduate, maybe napa. For two good reasons: one, I'll save HELLA money (even w/the scholorships) & two: I don't know what I want to major in yet. Then I plan on transferring to a UC, my ultimate goal/dream is CAL. Because I can :)
so yeah, boring boring boring. Idk if i should be looking foward to it, i mean, i am...but I'm hella gonna miss what i do. like fuhh. At the same time i wouldn't go back to high school, EVER. haha. I know I'm gonna be seperated from hella people that i talk to now. except for the close ones. duh. thats what Fb, myspace, & twitter is for, right? hah. I've heard hella stories about life after high school. from alumni, family, etc. But I'm definately in NO RUSH. enjoying every fcukin second that i can with the class of dimessX.

=)

guess what

I'm in love.

feelin like

:)

reality check

shit happens.

toyed with my affliction

Thought long, hard, & tried everything. My body is fatigue, not literally but emotionally. My affliction was toyed and played with which brought me to this decision. This is a warning to everybody; Don't mess with me, cause I Don't play. I'll admit I did mess up, but damn, really? . This sucks because it's a stupid reason for this journey to end. The words I thought I wouldn't hear for a long time was announced in the most serious manner: " Atleast We're Friends. " It crushed me. Made me feel weak for a second, until I realized I was born into a brand new stronger person who won't let this typical high school shit get in the way of her dreams and everything in between it. Something called life.

This is the start of something new, and if you have some shit to say, say it to my face. Cause I will find out. I'm not stupid. No longer tied down, no longer dealin with this shit, moving on, moving forward, and looking foward to this journey called life. If your in mine, then your fuckin special, if your not than YOUR LOSS. I'm in a "i don't give a fuck" mood. Being as real as i can be.

-Regine Alojado.

my six titles

1. asb president
2. interact club: president
3. band council: vice pres.
4. drumline: co-captain
5. drumline: bass captain/sec. leader
6. book club: secretary

wow. i'm really going to be bussy this year. this is the reason why i decided not to take any ap or honors classes, because all the extra curricular activities would really ef up my grades. so i didn't even bother. i know what i'm doing is what i love. honestly, cross my heart. I'm excited, and happy, like..you don't even know. Like i said, i will commit, not TRY to commit, but WILL COMMIT. i feel happy where i'm at individually. although, i don't in general. with the seniors. i can tell something is breaking us apart, and its not cool at all. I dont know what to do, who to ask. At this point, i really do wish that time machines were real. at the same time i dont, i have my reasons. as it seems currently, we definately don't have the same friends. who's to blame? idk. no one i guess. well thats my opinion. i feel as it just "happend".. I'm not taking ___ too seriously either, and its really helping..
i just wish that one person, that i had, were here. so i can talk to someone that isn't involved in all this mess. this suuuuuuuuucks major balls right now. :(
idk why i'm thinking about this so much. maybe i need another get away. meet new freakin people. should i just keep doing with what i'm doing and not trip about you know what? or ... do something that might make it worse. ? idk mannnnn. wack. this is bad, i feel as if i'm complaining. which i am. ugh wtf. i guess i'll just go with my flow and see what happens. cause honestly im still trying for you but to this point i really really dont know if its going to work out. you say your friends are always going to be your friends but i know for a fact, i'm either going to have to live with what i dont like, or just leave a good thing and live with dignity. dont cha hate 50/50 situations? well i can say " i know how you feel ". especially right now. as things seemed they were getting better, under everything, it wasn't. i hope im not being fooled, by fools. we'll see what happens. right now, all i can say is, i know who my TRUE FRIENDS are. and will ALWAYS BE. <3

"good things fall apart so BETTER things can fall together"

through this minor/major drama, I'm still going to fight. bitch.
:)

-me

Life as I know it

First of all, lesson definately learned, actions speak way louder than words. I've found a new passion in which I'm not so great at. I'm ready to do what it takes to be great. Instead of thinking how bad I did, I'm thinking what I can do to make me do better next time, and just go UP from here. To make it short, I have a lot to work on. School, my classes are pretty easy this year, and I'm glad because I don't have to stress as much. The first three days were aiight, got my locker, books. Teachers are cool. Two of them talk a lil too much =) hah its all goood thou. I need to start driving already. I'm running for vice president for band council so vote for me bitches =) haha. I have two stalkers o.o creeepy. I'm hungry. I'm confuesed with the high school dramas again.

WACK

SAD

so today i heard there were volleyball tryouts..........
& I'm hella sad cause this is the first year I'm not doing it just because I'm in battery for drumline, and senior in band and everything else..I just know that i won't have time for it all. and i had to eliminate one thing that i love to do which was volleyball....this sucks. I hope that my decision is worth it... it was so hard to choose. UGH. =(

forgetting you

the title of this blog entry implies to a few people. For those of you that know me well enough may know what I'm talking about. Anyhoo, my bad for not blogging much lately. So school is just around the corner, & ofcourse I'm excited its my senior year! It really went by so fast. Summer, was greatt fantastic magnificant chill everything, & when i say everything i mean the bad stuff too people. drama, stuck in others ppl drama, etc. but hey its life. I'm excited and ready for this next year. ready to move onnnn. & ftp (fuck the past) foreal. i've been going out too much, need to be home more. Well my own dilema is over. thank the lord. I've been trying to find a job, still no luck. But hey, rejection is God's protection. thats my motto. lol. really though. I think i'm gonna make this blog entry short cause my mind is really blank . hmm well 500 days of summer, g.i joe , harry potter , the proposal, the time travelers wife were a few good movies that i watched this summer. I'm going to see the ugly truth this sunday.. so i hope its good. early bird ! lets just say the next two days, I'm going to have the bessst time of my life before this busy year. Whos with me?

=)

days of my life

lately, I’ve been involved in some stupid typical high school drama. It’s about to be my senior year, and I am not going to let this dumb drama ruin it. Its pointless, and just unnecessary to be dealing with.. like seriously..when I think of it..its like are you serious? ..when something is bothering me, in any negative way, i’m going to get rid of it. That is what I’m going to do, get rid of it and move on. Because why should I dwell on the past? I’m talking about the negative memories now.. what is that going to do? All I can say, is that I will squash what ever i need to. Because this has been going on for too long. NO ONE is to blame. shxt just happens. you fall, get up, and keep moving. It happens numerous times in life, might as well START doing something about it.

boostatus report

on my part, I messed up. real bad, so i really don’t know where our relationship stands right now. It’d be so wierd if we broke up. Only cause its been so long. We might not want to leave because we’re afraid to throw everything away, but being together is killing us. I’m just chillin right now, waiting for time to heal everything. I’m not trippn so much cause i’m moving on. i have the exact same attitude towards the ‘high school drama’ situation.. What ever happens, happens. If it was meant to be, then it WILL happen. -realtalk

other than that..lol.. uhm so i have this tumblr. i've been having it since December of last year. & now ppl are gettin on it. I used this to vent my personal shtuffs. sorry i deleted it. cause they were pretty intence and very very deep and personal. get at it www.iamregine.tumblr.com soo anyhoo… haha.

DRUMLINE so ever since i was in 8th grade @ springstowne. I was forced to join band/drumline by some friends.. and I’ve been in it ever since cause I love it, duh. But, I’ve always been in PIT:) I’ve always had this dream to be in battery but I knew it wouldn’t happen. I just thought I wasn’t good enough, but recently, others had a different belief. I was asked to be a bass! So now I’m in battery, and it is a really different world from pit. It’s pretty dope so far. Like I’ve been telling other people, I won’t believe it until the first day of COMP, cause I still feel like I’m living in my dream:) haha so…yeah. hopefully everything works out as it is.

I think that’s about it? update yall bout my life latahhh.

-Regine

Summer 09

So farrrrr...

kay, sorry for not blogging alot AGAIN. Well I just came back from mexico the day before yesterday. so cheyea..

CAMP

kay, i know just the word "camp" alone may sound nerdy. But it was actually pretty crackin. I'm not gonna lie, and act like it was boring cause it wasn't.
Basically it was a leadership camp all the way down in hayforks. I stayed there for about a week. Phoneless, electronicLESS period. yup so i really got to enjoy everymoment while i was there. There were 144 upcoming seniors there.. including me, and other counslers. First i thought it was gonna be boring, but boyyy was I wrong.. ha. Well LET ME TELL YOU.. haha it was the complete opposite.
I learned hellllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, and met hella new people. I broke a piece of wood, at my first try. It was one of those planks that they use for karate ppl. ha. but yeah i spent my birthday there..i know .. lame but it was a suprise.. the morning i woke up the girls in my platform (group/cabin) said happy bbday. then later.... at lunch time...the whole camp made me a CAKE! & sang happy bday.. aha then they made me this big poster. =) there were two other bdays there..but whatever. haha. jk. we did a ropes course, like zip lining and stuff, yeah shit was scary and fun at the same time.. went swimming ina real river! hella fun. idk, everything is kinda hard to explain. haha. but, over all it was really a "life changing experience" every one was sad to go. Including me. It sucks that you can only go One time as a student. you have to be a Junior, and go through a interview process. Then you go, and you can only come back if you become a counsler(21 yrs old). mhhmm. I had hella fun, and it was a freakkin great way to start summer. =) if there are any up coming jjuniors reading this, i really encourage you to go next summer, because if ya dont, your definately gonna miss outtt! & join interact club! haha

My First Cruise
dammn, well like i said in the beggining i kinda just came back from it..and it has not been off my mind ever since. From vallejo to long beach, Ca then off to mexico. The first two days were cooo, i spent hella time with fam. There were actually 22 of us. which made it cracckin too. haha, i didnt get to use my phone there either, so there goes another week phoneless.. but thats okay.. i had hella natural highs while i was there. i went zip lining in mexico, they call it "canopy". well yeah i did that for 5 hours. and sight seeing and what not. tequila tasting! i think the age there for being able to drink alcohol is 15? or 12? ahah im pretty sure its 15. but yeah like i said...it was CRACCCCCCCKIN. i went swimming, ate HEEEEELLLLLA FOOOOD! everyday, all day! there was a club there too for certain ages. and i met hella people from around the U.s and austrailians! yumpp. but damn, when you go on a cruise, they feed you like there's no tomorro. like foreal. its crazy. but the food is so good. I miss it already. there's no curfew there, and you can just chill like at 3 or 4 in the morning, where ever. get ice cream and just chill. it was dopppe. i pulled an all nighter with my friend niko. we had adventures through the whole boat haha, it was fun. Then we went to Cabo, and its heeeelllla nice over there. hella clean ,and quiet. theres hella stuff to do there, cause its mainly a city/town for tourist. so chyea. the last two days were the bestttttt. i wont go into detail, but damn.. I'm never gonna forget my first cruise. thats all i got to sayy. If you haven't gone on a cruise, ya need to gooo! go on a CARNIVAL cruise though. cause its more family/ friend oriented.

Now..
I'm at home..chilln. Enjoying life as it is. its fukn great right now, like you dont even know. There's some drama goin onn but what evahhh. Its the past right? so yeah.. my bday celebration is comin up. yall better save up! OH and i was invited to go to italy for two weeks with my cousin! hahah. idk if i have the $$ though. so we'll see. I'm chilln, so if anyones bored, hit me uuppppppppppppp:)

alrighty, blog more next time..
-Reginneee =)

15 more days

until my bdayyyy. 17 babby. :)
so i havnt blogged lately and still don't really feel like it..
all i have to say is my life is pretty darn goood right now =]
although i have been thinkin, just a little. =) about good things...
'
my horo' for today:
You and your people are all trying to deal with some big issue, but your solution seems to be the right one -- let it go for a while and try to have fun while things sort themselves out.
(my real friends know what this relates to..) mhm!

i will be a SEN10R in 5 days!

Can't Sleep

currently 1:14am

I just finished The Crucible essay for Woolard. Brief summary of my day; Woke up around 11:30pm. Ate "brunch" at 12. Shower, and left to get michelle's birthday cake even though her birthday was yesterday? haha. @ coldstone. got some jamba juice and ran into James Z ! long time no see shit, then chopped it up for a bit, then off to pick up jeffrey then off to kim's house to work on the crucible group project. Recorded, and we have helllla blooppers haha. omg. it took us two hours just to record 2 pages. and we have 4 pages left and only have tomorro. . fml.
then..left Got panda express, ate. Essay. Fin.

Now sitting up in my room. Its hella hot still.. /: soo let's review of what had occured yesterday hah. sounds like im in school..ugh. okay well FRIDAY. i missed the freakin lab for chem cuhs i was in ramos office,and helping with leadership stuffs and preparing for the rally. the only period i went to was 2nd and the begining of 3rd. missed the rest to set up for the rally. The rally was pretty cooo. i just hated performing with drumline just because it was hella hot, and musttyy ughh ..
so as usual all the junior class posters that i work hard on got ripped down, but its cool, i saw it coming. -_- rest of the day, had band practice. watched the pursuit of happiness cuhs that movie is dope.

Sat; Last Encinal band competition. rode on the crackin bus :)
Felt great about our performance over all. didnt go on the beach this time, just because it was too hot. We placed 2nd for band, lost to vanden.. >:( and 3rd in dl...
whatever. haha. smith talked to us the day before and kinda gave us a heads up. he said that it's fine to lose sometimes just because if you are continously winning all the time, it tend to become a job. so yeah thats understandable.

left early to go on the BOAT hah as jaybee would say it. but went to the interact boat cruise. I'm glad i decided to go. so anyways we left HELLA EARLY. we left alemeda at like 4/5? and got to the city (pier 31) like at 6? yeah we had hella time to kill so we just went to pier 39 in our nice ass performance clothes. haha we looked like entrepenuers. boat cruise was pretty fun. i got motion sickness , so i had to take a pill , it didnt kick in for a while. so the guard told me to stand on the deck and stare at the horizon for 3-5 minutes. It made the dizzy ness go away, and i felt hella better. so it worked. I wish more juniors went. but it was still coo.

so lately i've been thinking about the drama with drumline and what not. And i've been finding out a lot about other organizations that make our drama seem not as bad. I've been talking it over with a few people lately. some of you may know what i'm talking about .. but yeah. on the way to encinal i found out a lot about someone that should really change.. for the better. anyway, the situation their in makes me feel bad, just because its not good? haha. and good just because its not happening to us i guess. :) sounds selfish but true.
I realized that i really shouldnt be trippin over the things that i do.. like foreal.. its not worth holding a grudge.. it takes more energy to mad at someone than just bein coo with them. Or even just being mad takes more energy to be happy period.
I'm glad i have the best friends, family and boyfriend. because they help me realize all this shit. and just make me better. like damn. wth have i been doing for the past months. I've been arguing and stressing for a reason but not even worth it...
But hey , i'm glad i finally realized it.. better now then never yeah?

Ha, as for now my mood is hhhella good/happy. and i think blogging made me sleepy so, imma go dream now. Good night world.

-Regine Alojado.

FML

i hate relationships.
forever.
and ever
and ever.
until someone changes my mind.

Another Day

today, went to DK with the leadership students, had boooommb ass icecream. rode almost everything, even though it was raining.. -_- left early.BAND.
Yo's Sushi opened today in glen cove, hella people though. It was worth the wait.=]
Besterest House-hiddenbrookkee. hella like IKEEA though. hella DOGS! haha. rockband.
tomorro, gotta be at school by 5:50freakin AM. wthlksdjflkj.
day didnt go as planned. but it was fun :) wish us luck for tomorro. nigght&&
WORLD PEACE :)

time

-has been going by pretty fast. Damn, only 30 school days left, and I'm a freakin senior.. damn.

nehooo. Yesterday .. i was sick at home all day :( kawawa.

but the day BEFORE yesterday... it was still star testing ... the last year of star testing! yess.

band practice, then went to jeffreys house to eat mango ice cream? haha then rachel, jeffrey, and i went to the park to fly his kite, and play at the playground. it was coooooo. but we need a REAL kite, haha not one from target fo 2 dollahs.

Today, Joeys Bday Basssh haha :)

@ olive garden we were HELLA LOUD aha, then country creamry . $1 a scoop :) i just got home, then school tomorro. shietttt, then dl practice SSHHIIIETTT. haha COMP SAT FFAAAKKKK . FML

(pichas latter)

Relationship = :(

UGHHHH FML.

no jk, i had a really good day, other than the love life.. but chea, time to sleep

work hard tmro/friday, party, work hard sat afta noon, than partyyyy. :) hayyyy :)

goodnight werld.

i miss the way we used to be..

:0

random shock of the day:
after two years and two months...
jeffrey opened the car door for me!
:)

behind the scenes

I am so relieved now that elections for next year's leadership class is OVER! Yay, for all of you that are reading this and supported me through the entire election .. i just want to THANK YOU! it wouldn't of happened with out your support :) :) :)

SO, while i was campaigning for asb pres (09-10)...
i spent long nights working on posters, little foam hands, stars, cupcakes, and lollipops to pass out and promote at school, with my mom, jeffrey, and matt.m.
I post them up at school, then the day after, i would find them on the floor out side in random places on the campus...stepped on, ripped,or even in the garbage... some people even ripped the fingers to make it only the middle finger sticking up...hella RUDE...and i know my friends wouldn't do that....i was hella heart broken..
then, one day i was walking during passing period to the office to go do the daily announcements..and while i was walking past the "H" building...a big ass rock flew across my face. luckily it missed. but it ended up hitting a girl that was standing a few feet away from me, it hit her leg, not hard enough to hurt, and she just looked at me. i turned around to look where it came from, and i saw a bunch of kids run into a class room. it was too fast to catch and remember any faces. so i just let it go..
WTF, some one would try to throw a rock at me. man that was by far the most chaotic campaign everrr..

So Monday, April, 20th
I was suspended from school for missing sat. school, b/c i missed one detention, which is the only detention i've ever had and i decided to sacrifice band to leave to a competition instead....sooo i wasnt at school. I texted one of the leadership officers to ask when they will announce the results. They told me it would be announced on Wednesday...
around lunch time, i was just chillin, watching t.v..hella tired after giving my dog a bath...than my phone beeps once. (thats when i recieve a text) than..it beeped...beeped..and beeped..beepBEEPBEEPBEEP**
i was like wtf is wrong with my phone...so i walked over to it because it was charging...i received like hella text messages saying " CONGRATS!!!!" and i was like wth....they dont announce it til wednesday,...
than i receive a call, from a leadership officer, and they told me that i won the campaign! woo :)
haha. im hella happy and excited for next year. i assure all the people that voted for me that i will not let YOU down. no matter what it takes, and that's a promise.

So yeah, thats all . It was fun, and my opponent and I are cool. haha. it just got really competitive.

so..Prom this SAT! dont forget your i'ds or else you will not be allowed into prom.. spread the word.

And if anyone is interested in Garders & corsages message me on myspace... k.

Happy Earth Day. :)

relationship mood: pissed...

Feels Good

to be livin :)

the down side..

goodbye,
spring break and winter season 2009 :(

Spring break
was funn. tried to spend time with my family, and dad the first week. It was hard though, because it was CCGC champs week. And i had drumline practice. So on monday we dropped him off to the airport, and now hes in Guam. Working so my family and I could pay the bills. Idk when i'm going to see him again. But hopefully this year he'll come back home. I went swimming after practice one day, and went to sonics like three times. DAMN. haha. what else... drumline practices...went to the city with matt, marissa, ona, and juliojulio. ona and matt came over after, and we watch twilight, and ate. Had a bbq party at my house with family before my dad left. Guard&DL picnic @ the big slide park in benicia. it was fun :) camp royal interview! D: (hella scary)

Champs
yesterday was NCBA championships at Licoln High School in Stockton. So we got there around 12. got there by bus. That was different because we usually carpool in parents cars. drum line had 5 hours to warm up because our performance time was 630ish. while we warmed up i got sun burn. :( and greg had white socks right...and we're supposed to wear black socks. and he only had ONE black sock. so he cut his ONE black sock in half, and put one piece on his right foot than the other on his left foot. so it looked like he was wearing black socks, but he wasnt. HElla ghettooo. haa. :D okay anyways, we had good run throughs before we stepped off. but the laptop wasnt really working, and we use it to play the voices during our show. than before i knew it, it was time to step off. And we talked together as a drumline before we went on, and some people started to tear. and it made me tear. we performed our hearts out. visually it was the best for me. and the crowd was good. so we had a penalty for going over time by 7 seconds, but it was taken off because the people in the stands disconnected our backdrops, and we had to fix it. anyways...we took 3rd, and Guard took CHAMPS! :) im so happy for them. they hella deserve it. I'm happy with our show, so what if we got third? that just tells us to work harder. I feel hella good that we're happy with our show, and we know we did our best, and we had FUN. we're doing what we love with the people we love. We lose and win together. Like our instructor stephanie said, " i dont care what place we get, i love you guys no matter what" . Man, i love that. One more winter season to go, and than graduation. damn. Time goes by so fast. So since winter seasons over...wth am i gonna do on tuesdays, thursdays, and sat. days?! haha. i have so much free time now. Im going to miss the seniors<33333

Recently
I got accepted to camp royal! its going to be a week long, june 14-june 21. so imma be there for my 17th birthday. Its a leadership camp, so hopefully it'll be worth the trip. :) Then when I get back, im going on a cruise to mexico with 21 family members for a week. soo im excited. Todaayyy, i got a invitation to the national leadership summit in washington , DC. i really want to go but its like $2,399. :(((( and my moma doesnt want to payy. but i really want to go. Its like 10 days long.

the national leadership summit is an extraordinary, fast-paced leadership program that offers outstanding students the unique opportunity to see and experience leadership action in our nation's capital.

seems like i'd learn alot, so i really want to go. feel free to donate to the regine needs money donation program. see regine for more details. haha. okayyy. now i gotta cram and do hella history and chemistry homeworkk. boooo. bye!

:) Ilovedrumline. Especially PIT<3

"There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy. "

sick, literally

mannn so I've been stuck at home for the past two days already.

so, my mom went to Las Vegas yesterday, which leaves my grandma and I at home. She wont be back until Sat. (tomorro). I've been hella sick.

I was hella sad when i woke up for school, because I didnt have a ride to school, and I was still hella sick, so I just ended up staying home. I woke up, and found out i didnt have a ride, then i fell back asleep and around 9am this morning I heard my 82 year old grandma screaming, because she opened the front door, and my house alarm went off, and she was screaming "REGINE, REGINE!!! TURN OFF THE ALARM !! THE POLICE ARE COMING!!!"

my grandma just moved in a few months ago, so she doesnt know how to turn the alarm on or off. Obviously.

i got up hella fast, and turned it off. and luckily the police didnt come, because the alarm only went off for 1min, or less, good thing im not a hellla deep sleeper.

then, i went to the garage to let my dog outside, and right when i turned around, i saw shit and piss on the floor next to the car. YES, my dog freakin took a dump and piss in my garage. and guess who had to clean it up? ME. mhm.

then i realized how much I was going to miss at school, since I'm stuck here at home... Prom Ticket Sales, And Prom Royalty meeting. ughhh. >:[

I feel like I've been in the house for YEARS already, all ive been doing is play counter-strike, and watch t.v. & play more video games. I couldnt even go to drumline practice. wtf. Yesterday, my internet wasn't working , neither was my house phone. So...I feel like im a slave in jail. :(

AND THEN, yesterday , i found out that my pit instructor walked out on us, and has a fifty-fifty % chance of seriously quiting, and if that happens, im doomed for life...

well on the bright side...it was jeffreys birthday on the 26th, and we went to eat at matsuris in benicia, and got hella good sushi for hella little money :)))) thanks to....leoooonarrrd.

Here are some pics, that wont be on myspace....

I gave MYSPACE UP for lent. so thats why i wont be on for a while...

mmkay, well. time for more video games.... :p

=)

On Presidents day, i went to Fujis, with My moma & jeffffffffff, it was his first time. yay. :) only $12.95, sonnyyy.

I have a prom date =)

On valentines day, I had a competition at Rodriguez. Woke up late, left school on time, and preformed at 11ish. Awards finished around 3, and got home around 3:30 ish. (btw, we tied w/fairfield & took first. ) I started playing on my piano when i got home...blahblahblah...few mins later, my mom calls me upstairs, she said i was in trouble because "she found something in my room". I was finnuh shit in my pants ! iwas hella scared. so i walked upstairs slowly...and opened my door, and my room was decorated like that ^^^ ?!

I couldnt believe what i saw, haha. So basically, while I was at my competition, my mom drove back home , and let Jeffrey decorate my room. He wasnt there when i got to see it though, b/c he had comp in San Jose. SO there was this "suprise" letter on my bed with baloons around it. He said happy valentines day..blahblahblha.hope you like what i did for you...blah blah..will you go to prom with me? " =) my room doesnt look that decorated but it was, looks better in person too.

this made my day. I would've never thought he'd do something like that because, hes not romantic or anythang... so yea. :)

Squaw Valley

So last wednesday, i went to Sqaw Valley in Lake Tahoe. It was my first time there, and i was soo excited to goo. We left at 6:30am, and got there like at 11:30pm! The bus ride took hella long b/c we stopped hella times to put the snow chains on, and take em off, and put em on again >=[
So we ended up only having 2 1/2 hours to board. OMGAH, but once we got there...it was CRACKIN! the snow, the weather, the people, the food the everything there was hella dopppe. too bad if ya didnt goo. but i cant stop thinking about it, thats how great it was. I was with Brian & Jeffrey most of the time. We went on like three diamond runs, and other dope ass runs.
heres the map:
http://www.squaw.com/squaw-valley-usa-mountain-map

i want to go back before the season ends, hopefully the end of this month. :))))))))))
Im going to try my best to convince my brothaaa.

alright, i got practice from 9am-6pm tmro :(
goodnight.

Not really

"la dolce vita"

but not for me.

Im Falling...

In & Out. How is that possible?

Idk, but i feel it.

whata week

damn, so one of my most productive weeks!. so since the last time i posted...i was talking about crab feed comin up. Wel, that day, i woke up for school at 7 then, i couldnt even get up! like my body felt hella light.. i was scared. but my mom said my body was over fatigue. and yeahh...cuhs the day before... i got home at 10 at night cuhs of DL practice, and yeahhh. soo i ended up sleeping around 12-1 am . cuhs of homework. /=

CRAB FEED.
this year it was good/okay/alright i guess. i was hella trippin in the beginning. i was getting hella annoyed though. cuhs it was kinda unorganized while we were setting up. And on top of that, the parents were yelling, not crackin. but as time went by, i was put in charge for decorations. big woop. yeahh, idk though... i feel like i just dont belong anymore. not wanted... i was hella sad... i couldnt even talk to jeff about it... and i just kept putting it off. damn... but other than that...we played and it was pretty good. and once i started serving.. i forgot about everything else and cheered up. =) $14 tip. THANKS to spotty for taking over my shift during my break =p
yeahh, it was a success though. we made around $1000 just on raffles. :D and like $410 on Tips .
not bad. I was so tired that night.

FIRST COMP; Amador Valley High
deyumm, not much to say about this one. BUT while we preformed...it felt good, wasnt nervous, felt like i was at practice...there was alot of "off" moments throughout the pit and battery. butttt we'll fix that! and on the way there, i fell asleep. ha good nap though. yap, what else, we took 2nd outa 2. yap, mmmmmmm..... :) SO i tried to make it to awards...but i was hungry....so i went eat instead...then i started walking towards the gym. with..ben. then we saw every one walking the opposite direction! aghhh. hah, yes we missed it.. then i asked Vallejo kids if it was over. they said yeah. btw, you vallejo kids are nice :) i left early, and went to my cousins debut....

Maes Debut

it was crackin. hellla people. too many niggas not enough...you know. yeah. music/dj was cooh, but some ppl were posted, and i felt uncomfortable cuhs i didnt know anyone really...but i re-met this guy, we used to play when we were little..and he looks hella diff now.. i mean ofcourse why wouldnt he...its been like years... but i remember when he gave me one of those sour airhead candies,when we were little, and he told me to try it.. and when i noticed it was sour..he took it and let it run under water so the sour taste would go away. :) aw. haha.
oh and there was this guy that sang for my cousin...and he was HELLA good. omgah....my heart almost melted right then and there...imma ask him to sing at my cotillion :) ill post pictures up later.. i hella cried when i did my cousins speech. couldnt help it dangit. yeah, slept over, and watched her open her moneys & gifts this morning. got home, and worked on the dangit gatsby pproject with mark.a, jeffrey, pam, & huong. haha its funny so far. and due tmro. we're screwweed. no dvd, just a USB.

Stuff To Be Excited for:
Rodriguez Comp
Snowboarding with the Cousins
Reno with the Cousins
this weekend baby ;)

I'm Hella sleepy, and my thinking almost took over me again, until i read another blog about the comp yesterday.... but i just noticed...that when i see something that i get jelous of...i feel unsatisfied...i know its all in my head...but its hella hard to control...trust me. i tried to get rid of it... =( night.

High School?

damn, well good news is that i got my board back forsure. yess. im so happy that i dont have to waste my money to buy a new one! now i dont have to rent. yes. lesson learned!

short day today...now that i think about it, it went by pretty slow. but its cooh, wasnt boring. yeah, ive been thinking about how time is going by so fast. and what ive gotten myself into. For example, Leadership, after all these years since/before i got to high school, ive always wanted to be in Leadership. I mean dont get me wrong, i like it. Its just not what i expected. I thought we would have muster, but nope. So now its Ramos. I really think his head is going to explode soon. Poor guy. Hes good at what he does, its just hes teaching and doing alot of things already! doing too much.

Well, next year is my senior year, and i have alot of plans for the next school year. It just sucks though, because I want to do all these things that other schools do and MORE, but there isnt that much financial support. SO, hopefully, we can find a way to fundraise better. Because Bethel is weak compared to other schools. i mean, activity wise, for example, boat cruise, and home coming floats. I'm tired of people looking down at our school.. but theres nothing we can really do, but do our best.

Worked on the Gatsby Project today. hahaha, hella ate. but its coooh. we got this on lock.

Oh & after school, had a meeting with the section leaders for DL. Its another repeat ...thats the bad news today. =[ . what ever decision we make, we're f*cked. damn...

what else...well i dont feel as bussy as i thought i'd be. which is a good thing. crab feed is coming up, and so is jeffs birthday! well kinda. gotta start savin up for his gift. shooooo.

First comp this Sat. .. .. . ... . . . . .

dont expect SO much. thats all im gonna say.

Im out.

for todays random word: "TYPICAL"

dennys day

couldnt go. fuck ends in 17mins. F*ck

im in leadership PENIS<<- marvin yuson put that. (Thatmarvieezekidd) class.

cRITICAL CRITICAL EVERYTHING IS CRITICAL.

SO

today i kept thinking when i got home.
and someone made me realize, that its all in my head.
i can really say, ive been blessed with such a great friend. JP. thanks duude.
for just listening.

thanks to ALL my friends, family, & bf for listening to all my bs, and copin with my dumb problems that arent really problems compared to others .

omg. im on the phone with jeffrey, and hes making wierd sounds like a cow thats kawawa =(

hahah wierdoooooooo =p

today was a good day.

and imma miss you EDDIEENEEEEEEEEE! :D

"no body no body but YOU *clap clap* " repeat 2X

Yesterday & The Present

A Friday night, decided to stay home, spend time with the moms, and inay. =]its fun being around them, hella chill. thats what i like about being around people, anyone really, even if im not, i like how im not the type of person that gets bored easily.

but i do have my down side…yeah, i started thinking again...i like to surround myself with guys.. just cause there are those really cool guys that are down just to kick it. i love how there so…like GUYS. they dont talk shit, or about boys..hahah all the freakin time. they're hella just CHILL. i love that. thats why i have alot of guy friends. ha. talking about this makes me smile. cuhs when im surrounded by people like them..my mind gets off everything else. and then theres my chosen few of my close girlfriends. haha. every time i see YOU KNOW WHO. i feel so tense. all bad right?

i know i know its all in my head. i really need to stop analyzing. dude.. this sucks.
well..i guess im still gonna deal with it for now. and stuffs.

so todays my friend stvens birthday. it was at applebees, and a the movies. but i didnt feel like spending money.. it could go to better things.. right? like to my family in the Philippines.
so today. i felt like stuck up kind of. idk why. =p i need to stop all these negative things about me! such a bad habbit. i cant help it though..its just me? its the way i am.

i started thinking about being blessed, and thankful rather than being sad. because i am really really blessed. thank you Jesus. i love you. i swear.

plum, i know you read this too. ahha ily :p

Unexpected

yayy. today, was a good day =)
had Yos Sushi for the first time, and it was NOT over rated. its as good as everyone said it is. yummm. =) had icecream for only 2 bucks! a dollar per scoop.

everythings going good. except for my family...a terrible incident happened in the Philippines. On my moms side, cousins were murdered. stabbed to death. its a long story, and was on the Filipino channel News yesterday.. im just tryna be here for my mom... its really traumatizing..

usually, I'd hear crazy stories of people, or a family being murdered, but I'd never think of it happening to my own family.

It was so unexpected, I learned that you might THINK you know someone really well but you really don't know them at all.. lifes crazy these days..

Loosing alot of family in the Philippines right now... I mean, its really sad, but I'm not really close to them. Ive only been to the P.I once, and my mom was raised there, so I cant really know how it feels to be my mom right now..

for those who read this, just please keep us in your prayers, and dont forget to pray for your own. because you might not think this will not happen to your own, but it can. Sorry for being so straight foward, but i didnt think it would happen to mine, but it did. God Bless everyone & peace.


Regine.

Snow=)

Finally, I went to the snow. Went snowboarding with jenny, marvin and my mama. yesss =) i<3snow. memories =")">boomtown (to eat)>reno/circus circus/>play>sleep>eat>play>done. ahhh. the people i invited, that didnt go. ya missed out. hah, sorry. seriously though.

Luck?

This whole weekend we were seriously lucky. Okay, so on the way there it really felt like an hour 1/2 drive! then, nightboarding lift tickets cost $25 , and some lady offers us 2 lift tickets for $10 each! i was like no wayy, this cant be real. We bought them from her and they were valid ! Then we got a free room at boomtown/ & free food. Then we felt like going to circus circus, and ended up staying there, and got another FREE ROOM! wthek? but wait theres more..we got 30 Free coupons for playing those games in circus circus. omg. hella lucky. and we got home safely. =) i love free stuff dont you? hah.

I have hella homework doe. danng, its worth it all. =)

crackinest 3day weekend ever. and its just the start of a new beginning =) yeee. '09.

CHANGE IS COMING.

bad habit

i told myself i would not be insecure, but i can't help it.

especially after what i've been through. i hate this. its only at certain times...idk who to trust anymore. =(

roller coaster & someone

boooo, i hate flakes. =[ i was suppose to watch bethels' guard preform at their evals, but my ride flaked. geeze thanks alot. than called hella people, but everyone was doing their own thing. woke leonard up. ahah sorrry beb. insted, just chilled with jenny,jordan, and jason. went to target and bought pineapple express. that movie is hella funny. and bought pizza & crazy bread betcchh.

report card came...dissappointing...yes. /= but i am doing my best. i failed first semester of math..if i hadnt got so bigheaded. geeze . so im going to take "cyber high" hopefully ill PASS this time. but other than that. .. my new years resolutions are.. not going as planned. besides going to church more. :) theres one bright side.


theres just that one person in the back of my mind, that just inspires me. of what they've become..its like ...wierd i guess. they came from another country, and its amazing of the person they've become. ive felt so close when we first met. but nothing. no nothing. just ...idk? like i said its wierd.. i want to talk to them...but im scared... hahaha. :) new friend , your hella dope. but its not worth all the hurting. kay? its not worth it..i barely see you. but when i did once this new year began.. ive tried to avoid you. just cause. i know what your going through. and its hard. and you just have to be strong. one day, i promise. ill get rid of alla that wierdness and ill try to just to be myself. haah. i hate when you try to get to know someone, but they dont want to get to knw you back. you suuuuuuuuuuuck. ha. jk

more later.
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Life

its 2:45 am. school is going to start in about 5 hours and i still can't sleep. I've tried, but i really can't. Its like I have winter break jet lag :( kawawa

anyways i just got back from palm springs last night. I went with my mama, Nikko. J, Justine.J, Arlo, and Lisa. it was helllaaa funn =] , and i learned so much. Even though what I'm doing is business and entrepreneur stuff, i love and cherish every thing about it, because not only do I learn about how to become a millionaire someday, but i learn so much about life in general, and how to make myself a better person. Leadership training is really good to experience, i highly recommend it for everyone. So anyways, yeah it was also a crackin roaddd trip! we saved hella money on food, cuhs we know how to pack food the right way! ;) yee. the only sad part was not being able to shop at the biggest outlet in the east coast which was on the way back home. it was torture passing by it on the freeway, SLOWLY because of the daang traffic. our team made a pact: " no T.v or Movies, and we must watch training everyday for atleast an hour" omgahhh so hard ! haha :( the person that gives in first has to give everyone 20 bucks. I think arlo lost already :) hahahah.

today, the last day of break, i kicked it with J.p, and we watched bed time stories, and kicked it in the plaza. it was fun. i bought a new calenderr, and a cars set for jeffrey. hes so spoiled =p haha ontop of the dope boxers i got from palm springs, unhh huh, and theres no holiday! i just got it for this nigga. :)

so now, i just got off the phone with someone. wont say who. but I''m really glad he/she called. They were going through a bunch of hard times, and stress. So i gave advice. Whats shocking is that I'm not close to this person, but they said their glad that we had that talk. My point here is....in life, you learn to define yourself everyday, you learn something new everyday until you stop breathing. God, throws obstacles at you in your life so you can over come them to become a better person, to learn from your mistakes and your experiences, so that maybe..just maybe someday, you can talk to someone, give them advice to help prevent their mistakes that you've already made. you can make a difference in someone elses' life, and it really could be anybody. Seriously, straight up, drama is just pointless, ridiculous, and a waste of time. Insted of spending time being mad at someone, you can be helping out someone that has worse problems that you'll ever have. If you have not noticed yet, being mad or sad at anyone or at a situation takes more energy from you, then being naturally happy. just be yourself. be thankful that your alive, do not ever think that your life has no purpose because it does. if you are thinking that, and i found out you think that, i will really slap the sense into you. YOU are the greatest gift that was ever given, LIFE- Jesus gave you LIFE to help the world become a better place. NO im not saying that your going to end up being super man. But being YOU will help the world, because you do have a purpose of living. Ofcourse you will run into problems in the long run, but being sad about it will do what? NOTHING! so dont waste your time on being depressed. its not worth it. you deserve to be happy, and realize that you are so blessed to be alive. There are so many kids that dont have parents, or there are so many parents that lost their kids. People die so young, and what pisses me off is that teenagers these days trip about not being able to go out! or over their boyfriend/ girlfriend relationships. little things that people get mad about is just a waste of time. Be thankful to be alive, for having family and friends that care about you. Because they are the ones who are always there. Pray to God , and thank him for giving you life, and for to still be living. If you lost loved ones, still Pray to God, and thank him for giving THEM life, thank him for giving you the chance to get to know the incredible people they are and move on. It takes time, to heal. You have to be patient. Just be yourself, live every day like there is no tomorrow. Be happy. Learn from your mistakes, and move on! don't live on your past, live the present, its called "present" because its a gift.

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years."

this means, when you pass away, there will be a tomb stone upon your grave, showing the year you were born, then a line, then the year you pass away. but those two years written are not what matters, what matters is what you make your life within those years. so make it happen. have a dream, a big dream, and bring it to life, or you'll never live =)

if anyone needs advice, im here, i dont care if i dont know you. ill try my best to help you out. Life is a blessing, use it to the fullest.

3:19 am. goodnight world. =]

A New Year

Happy New Year! Yes, 2008 was full of memories that I will definately cherish, but there will be more to come. Heres my first blog, I decided to make one because everyone else has one, so why not?

**My New Years resolution(s):

-Stay In Shape

-Avoid Procrastination PLEASE

-Try to smile more often

-Go to church more

-Don't think so much

-Live life like there's no tomorro.

-think of others more than yourself

*& more

Last night, New Years Eve was okay. I spent it with my mom and my inay (that's what my family calls my grandma). We threw coins at 12 midnight, just because its a tradition which symbolizes "to continue our wealth through out this new year" . My dog was just sitting on the floor watching us go crazy. haha. It was cool. After that short period, my inay went to sleep, and my mom and I stayed up watching College Road Trip that movie is "okay" i guess...then yeah, now its the first day of 2009, and I'm still moving into my brothers old room, so my inay could use my current one. Mhm. Tomorrow morning, I'm leaving to Palm Springs for a "vacation" but its really for an ACN training trip. It'll be fun, because there is snow up there. So hopefully, everything will turn out right. Jeffrey is supposed to come over today to watch Narnia 1 & 2 with me but...I really don't feel good. =( so its going to have to wait. okay, well this blog was pretty boring..haha, okay more later. peace.

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