my six titles

1. asb president
2. interact club: president
3. band council: vice pres.
4. drumline: co-captain
5. drumline: bass captain/sec. leader
6. book club: secretary

wow. i'm really going to be bussy this year. this is the reason why i decided not to take any ap or honors classes, because all the extra curricular activities would really ef up my grades. so i didn't even bother. i know what i'm doing is what i love. honestly, cross my heart. I'm excited, and happy, like..you don't even know. Like i said, i will commit, not TRY to commit, but WILL COMMIT. i feel happy where i'm at individually. although, i don't in general. with the seniors. i can tell something is breaking us apart, and its not cool at all. I dont know what to do, who to ask. At this point, i really do wish that time machines were real. at the same time i dont, i have my reasons. as it seems currently, we definately don't have the same friends. who's to blame? idk. no one i guess. well thats my opinion. i feel as it just "happend".. I'm not taking ___ too seriously either, and its really helping..
i just wish that one person, that i had, were here. so i can talk to someone that isn't involved in all this mess. this suuuuuuuuucks major balls right now. :(
idk why i'm thinking about this so much. maybe i need another get away. meet new freakin people. should i just keep doing with what i'm doing and not trip about you know what? or ... do something that might make it worse. ? idk mannnnn. wack. this is bad, i feel as if i'm complaining. which i am. ugh wtf. i guess i'll just go with my flow and see what happens. cause honestly im still trying for you but to this point i really really dont know if its going to work out. you say your friends are always going to be your friends but i know for a fact, i'm either going to have to live with what i dont like, or just leave a good thing and live with dignity. dont cha hate 50/50 situations? well i can say " i know how you feel ". especially right now. as things seemed they were getting better, under everything, it wasn't. i hope im not being fooled, by fools. we'll see what happens. right now, all i can say is, i know who my TRUE FRIENDS are. and will ALWAYS BE. <3

"good things fall apart so BETTER things can fall together"

through this minor/major drama, I'm still going to fight. bitch.
:)

-me