my six titles

1. asb president
2. interact club: president
3. band council: vice pres.
4. drumline: co-captain
5. drumline: bass captain/sec. leader
6. book club: secretary

wow. i'm really going to be bussy this year. this is the reason why i decided not to take any ap or honors classes, because all the extra curricular activities would really ef up my grades. so i didn't even bother. i know what i'm doing is what i love. honestly, cross my heart. I'm excited, and happy, like..you don't even know. Like i said, i will commit, not TRY to commit, but WILL COMMIT. i feel happy where i'm at individually. although, i don't in general. with the seniors. i can tell something is breaking us apart, and its not cool at all. I dont know what to do, who to ask. At this point, i really do wish that time machines were real. at the same time i dont, i have my reasons. as it seems currently, we definately don't have the same friends. who's to blame? idk. no one i guess. well thats my opinion. i feel as it just "happend".. I'm not taking ___ too seriously either, and its really helping..
i just wish that one person, that i had, were here. so i can talk to someone that isn't involved in all this mess. this suuuuuuuuucks major balls right now. :(
idk why i'm thinking about this so much. maybe i need another get away. meet new freakin people. should i just keep doing with what i'm doing and not trip about you know what? or ... do something that might make it worse. ? idk mannnnn. wack. this is bad, i feel as if i'm complaining. which i am. ugh wtf. i guess i'll just go with my flow and see what happens. cause honestly im still trying for you but to this point i really really dont know if its going to work out. you say your friends are always going to be your friends but i know for a fact, i'm either going to have to live with what i dont like, or just leave a good thing and live with dignity. dont cha hate 50/50 situations? well i can say " i know how you feel ". especially right now. as things seemed they were getting better, under everything, it wasn't. i hope im not being fooled, by fools. we'll see what happens. right now, all i can say is, i know who my TRUE FRIENDS are. and will ALWAYS BE. <3

"good things fall apart so BETTER things can fall together"

through this minor/major drama, I'm still going to fight. bitch.
:)

-me

Life as I know it

First of all, lesson definately learned, actions speak way louder than words. I've found a new passion in which I'm not so great at. I'm ready to do what it takes to be great. Instead of thinking how bad I did, I'm thinking what I can do to make me do better next time, and just go UP from here. To make it short, I have a lot to work on. School, my classes are pretty easy this year, and I'm glad because I don't have to stress as much. The first three days were aiight, got my locker, books. Teachers are cool. Two of them talk a lil too much =) hah its all goood thou. I need to start driving already. I'm running for vice president for band council so vote for me bitches =) haha. I have two stalkers o.o creeepy. I'm hungry. I'm confuesed with the high school dramas again.

WACK

SAD

so today i heard there were volleyball tryouts..........
& I'm hella sad cause this is the first year I'm not doing it just because I'm in battery for drumline, and senior in band and everything else..I just know that i won't have time for it all. and i had to eliminate one thing that i love to do which was volleyball....this sucks. I hope that my decision is worth it... it was so hard to choose. UGH. =(

forgetting you

the title of this blog entry implies to a few people. For those of you that know me well enough may know what I'm talking about. Anyhoo, my bad for not blogging much lately. So school is just around the corner, & ofcourse I'm excited its my senior year! It really went by so fast. Summer, was greatt fantastic magnificant chill everything, & when i say everything i mean the bad stuff too people. drama, stuck in others ppl drama, etc. but hey its life. I'm excited and ready for this next year. ready to move onnnn. & ftp (fuck the past) foreal. i've been going out too much, need to be home more. Well my own dilema is over. thank the lord. I've been trying to find a job, still no luck. But hey, rejection is God's protection. thats my motto. lol. really though. I think i'm gonna make this blog entry short cause my mind is really blank . hmm well 500 days of summer, g.i joe , harry potter , the proposal, the time travelers wife were a few good movies that i watched this summer. I'm going to see the ugly truth this sunday.. so i hope its good. early bird ! lets just say the next two days, I'm going to have the bessst time of my life before this busy year. Whos with me?

=)